Give me a break, this is my first time EVER posting a blog. Its something that I thought about doing after I made the ultimate decision over this past weekend to get the gastric bypass surgery. I figured this could be a way to help me stay motivated and I could write about how I was feeling everyday and my anxiety about it. I've always considered to have this done, but this weekend, my aunt and I were talking about it and she had mentioned that my doctor wants to me have it done, so I thought about it all that night and came to the decision the following night that I am going to go through with it. I have SERIOUS anxiety about surgery. Even though I have had 2 c-sections, those I had no choice but to have done, but nothing that I am VOLUNTEERING myself to do. It scares me. I'm scared that something will seriously go wrong and I will never see my kids again. But if I want to loose this nasty weight, I AM GOING TO GO THROUGH WITH THIS. My sister Jessica, just had this surgery almost 2 years ago now, and her results are amazing and I am hoping for the very same thing!!  So I am sure I could always have her there and my Aunt Kathy there for my support group!! That is all for right now, must get a move on my day and get my oldest son Michael ready for school... Thanks for reading =]